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Monday, June 02, 2008

9:32 PM

sigh. today i was supposed to watch accuracy of death and bunk (which till today, i still have never done before) but i didnt go in the end. D: i had this terrible pain in my right side of my stomach ystd night but i just ignored it and curled up to lessen the pain. but i woke up 2 hours later and it wasnt getting any better.
actually i was resolute about not going to the doctor cos i find it a waste of time but i just couldnt handle it and begged my dad to bring me to hospital. and they were suspecting appendicitis which was so conincidental since ruth just told me that same night about SOMEONE who propably had appendicitis too. and the next day i get it?! hmm.
but it's probably not appendicitis since i started feeling better while waiting A MILLION YEARS to see the doctor. which is quite good actually. so you just go to the hospital and wait till your sickness is actually gone before you finally see the doctor which by then you have nothing to tell her.
so now im stuck at home waiting to see if the pain gets worse and if it does, off to hospital again.

&the beauty.

12:16 AM

Im like blogging again cos i cant seem to sleep today. :/ i dont know why only when something is going before we start to regret but it's too late to treasure them by then. D:
anw, i just remember this funny/weird conversation i had in choir on some unknown day. (i do rmb it was raining though! yeah, like that helps. :/)
so jeanette tapped me and so i turned around,
J: hey, do you have pets?
Me: (thinking why the sudden randomness) Erm.. yeah.
J: oh good, cassandra! she has pets!
Me: Yeah, i got fishes, why?
C: (ignoring what i said or maybe a little confused too) oh good, i need to go toilet and see if i need to change PAD.
oh god. i seriously need to check if i have hearing defects or maybe jeanette needs to pronounce better! (nah im kidding :D)

Anw, tmr im going to watch accuracy of death. it seems like a pretty good movie since peishan was ranting about it after she watched it but hey, she's still ranting about that instructor we had in camp (you know who i mean), i dont know if i should trust her. >:]

dunno why i've been having bouts of depression lately. just some doubts about my self confidence and self esteem. and the best part is i dont even know what's causing all this. (maybe i do, but i just dont want to admit it) oh well im signing out.

&the beauty.

4:17 PM

Seriously i think our class is cursed with the baikah spell because i almost joined the list of CRIPPLES! (okay cripple is a really mean word but what do you call someone who has injured their legs?!) o.O i tripped over someone during frisbee and spained my foot though it wasnt serious. BUT i just had to hop down the stairs in my usual crazy klutzy manner which resulted in my other foot being sprained HARD. thanks lehlin and sharlyn for helping me hold my bags and i came onto choir feeling like a queen. but they turned out okay in the end. i still had the energy to go kbox and scream/shout/laugh and do anything but sing the next day. :D

anyway! jubilate is finally over but it was worth it and i still dont know whether caroline came or not since she's still making me guess and im cursing my tiny eyes for not being able to spot her and thus creating unneeded suspense for myself. D: and jiayi met someone after jubilate which made me go :O

and this concert thing has made me realise that our choir seniors and juniors are actually very sweet. :) like vanessa and jerlyn who spent hours doing their flowers and notes. me laughing our cassandra's violent brother, me laughing at my conversation with valerie, me laughing at amanda's nervous hiphop dance, averting my eyes from valerie and jiamei's scandalous acts ;D, getting lots of flowers from everybody too! :)
but sometimes i wish that i could just watch the performance too you know? instead of always being the performer. who knows, maybe someday im gonna pon one of our concerts and be the one cheering you guys on! :D OR i could do it the easier way and wait till im outta this school and watch it then. :/

wth! this is what not blogging for a very long time can do to you. you know that you got alot to say but you JUST CANT REMEMBER! and then you start to blank out. :/ -abrupt ending here-

&the beauty.